A Bump in the Road to Fitness

I got up this morning around 4:30am. Nic was nursing as is our routine. Once his tummy was full he began to goo and coo. I decided to go to the gym. Today marks two months for Nicholas and I feel that this is a great time to really get back into the swing of things. I purchased new workout clothes yesterday so I am ready. I took Nic into the room with his dad and got dressed. I had my ipod and my energy. I pulled up to the gym and everything looked different. VERY NICE. They have made lots of upgrades. Well, I pulled on the door and could not get in! What! I stood there and saw the faces of people that have known me for years. They watched me stand there. Finally, after about 10 minutes, a fitness instructor came to the door and asked what I needed. I told her who I was and that I was a member of the gym. She informs me that I have to have a card to get in. I asked if she could just look my name up in the computer. She said that no staff would be in until 8 am. (it's 5am) "Just come back at 8". I began to get a little hot and I said "what the hell!, I am here now because at 8am, I have other things to do!" I gathered myself and calmed down. I can't let you in she said. I will get in trouble. I said okay, if that's the way it is...then that's the way it is. I thought to myself, no one better never ever need to get in, cause I ain't lettin' NOBODY in...ever. I don't care if the owner of the gym leaves his card and I just finished having dinner at his house with his family and we converse on the phone everyday...I still "ain't lettin' NOBODY in....ever.

Its kind of funny how you get bumps in the road. Believe it or not I was not REALLY upset this morning, I didn't let the matter get to me. I just got in my truck and headed back home to play with Nicholas. I will get a card today and try again in the morning,  But the fact remains...I still ain't lettin' NOBODY in the gym that doesn't have a card. NOBODY :-)

Goodbye Grandma

This past weekend the Cole family said goodbye to Mary Alice Bradford Cole and her brother William Bradford. They died with in three days of each other, Grandma 7/16/2011 and Uncle William 7/19/2011 We had a double funeral since they were siblings and the same family members would be attending. It was a sad day. She died suddenly. There was no prolonged sickness. She was just ready to be with the Lord. Her brother William had been sick for some time. The service was a great celebration of the lives of Grandma and her brother. Members of the Mississippi Mass Choir attended to sing. It was beautiful.

Schedule Some "Me Time"

Man, I think it may be a little harder this time to get on schedule. I thought all I had to do was to put in a little effort. This takes more than effort. It takes the hand of God. Minimal sleep= too tired to attempt anything. My schedule is totally off. I've been having moments of pure panic. I feel my chest getting hot and my airway getting tight. This happens several times a day. To handle this, I stop, take a few deep breaths and I seem to calm down. I know that when I get back into my true workout routine, these panic attacks will be a distant memory.

These first two months with Nicholas added to our family have been fun; tiresome, but fun. He is such a smart boy. He is so alert, attentive and very vocal. Bug has adjusted well also. Bug plays well with Nic and makes him laugh. What a bond!

Okay, lets talk about me and the battle of the bulge. I am getting some of my old feelings back. I feel overwhelmed by all of the baby weight. I almost feel as if I can't do it. Getting on a schedule with a newborn and a three year old is no easy chore. It is so hard to put myself first. I think to myself, "the baby is going to get hungry while I am at the gym."  I know that this is just a trick of my mind to get me off my "A game"  but with this sleep deprivation....Mind 1....Mia 0. No matter what, I am up for the challange. I still ache to run. I still ache to fast regularly. I ache for "Me time".