Pre-birthday from Daddy Fred and the boys

Hello World,

I had the cutest pre-birthday celebration yesterday. Bug and Fred along with a little slobber and love from Nicholas decided to give me an early birthday. Bug and I made a chocolate cake. He wanted to put princesses on it, but I didn't think that was a good idea. He went out in the backyard and picked out some "flowers" (dandelion weeds) and asked to put then in a vase and than he kissed me on the jaw.  Fred purchased my iPad 2 that I have been hesitating to purchase for the last year. It is awesome, just like my phone only bigger. The cake was great! The love from the boys and Fred was the best part of all. My actual birthday is not until March 1st, but what a great early gift and the perfect day to celebrate, Sunday.

Nicholas stopped his scooting this week and is a full crawler. He does not put his right knee down, but he gets where he needs to go. Awe....tears, my little man is growing up. With today being the 27th, he is nine months old. Three more short months till his 1st birthday. Time has flown by. He is so ready to run around with his big brother.

Healthy wise:

I still have not become consistent with anything. I am probably larger today that I was when I started in 2009. No consistency with healthy eating or exercise. I have not been managing my stress well and have been eating as a replacement. I will do well and then go back to doing nothing. Yesterday, I did walk around the block as bug rode his bike and then we kicked the soccer ball in the backyard for about thirty minutes. So I will count that as "moving" for the day. Honestly, I am still waiting on the perfect time to begin all the while realizing that that perfect time does not exist.  I'll start tomorrow when this happens or next week when this happens then I can do blank.

I have been getting better at saying my confessions on a daily or almost daily basis. I have done better with that. I am working on consistency in this area.  Did I tell you about my confessions? Look, I wrote about 12 confessions last week for some areas that I would like to gain more faith in God in and also to help renew my mind to somethings. One of them is, "I forgive quickly and often so that my Father in heaven will forgive me". Well, I had a revelation of understanding this week for a situation that I had been so less understanding about and I was able to say of that is why that happened. Praise God for his mercy and His precious word that breaks yokes and releases burdens. I have also been confessing my trust in  Him to be my shield of protection and to assist with my daily needs. As a lifelong control freak, this is a big challenge to let go and let God, but  a healthy and whole me is going to emerge.

Talk later. I have a busy week. I hope to write before the weekend.

B-Ball Buggie; out of blubberville....for good?

Saturday was so fun. We wrapped up bitty basketball at the Olive Branch YMCA. Bug received his completion trophy and he has been so confident in everything ever since he got it. He went through the garage with no problem and even asked to open it.  He is not afraid to sleep in his own bed as long as he has his trophy with him. He has eaten all of his food. Man, I didn't realize a trophy could do so much for him in such a short amount of time. I signed him up for T-Ball in Horn Lake.

Nick is crawling now and saying "ma-ma" and "da-da". It appears to be meaningful. Especially when he uses "ma-ma". He doesn't have a name for Bug yet. He just yells at him when he wants his attention. He watches him like a hawk. He can't wait to start walking and playing with his big brother.

I took my dad to the airport yesterday.He is going to handle a little insurance business.  I wish he would look for a place to live there. He wants out of Clarksdale and has for some time. I think it would be good for him.

I have decided to stop my insanity. Yes, I have been doing the same things, not making true changes and really truly waiting on different results. That, my dear World, is the definition of insanity. As a colleague revealed, I did not really  want to let go because the struggle has been a part of me for as long as I can remember. YAY!, I think I have shrunk myself (plus the help of friends and family). This go round. EVERYTHING will be different. I have a renewed mind that continues to be renewed and I have the keys to permanent success and it has nothing, absolutely nothing to do with the physical (at this point). If I had truly grasped what God was telling me about this in 2009 and 2010, I would not be back here in blubberville. MOTIVES! I know how to get there from where I am today, now, right now and never return. Feelings can't be the driving force. I lacked true understanding of this. I can't feel like I need to do the right thing. I have to just do it and keep doing it. I now realize that there will never be a time when I am not tempted to go back to my old habits and if I do I don't have to throw in the towel. The spirit of lust never gets enough. Just when you think, 'oh, I'll start again tomorrow" you end up in the same boat because whatever led you to give in today and yesterday will be there to make you give in tomorrow.

The woman that works in the office next to mine has done every weight loss program it is and had her stomach stapled in the 80s and is still two hundred pounds overweight. She never got rid of the addiction, just her weight.  We have to walk in our freedom. When Jesus set us free, that gave us the power to resist, it didn't mean that we would not keep getting tempted. I guess we will be tempted with one thing or another till we "check outta here", but to remain in the same place for years under the same temptations, getting into and out of  the same trouble doesn't make sense and shows a huge lack of progress.

No Exercise!

I did not do one day of exercise. I mean, not-one-day. I want to go to the strength training class tomorrow, but Fred has to be at work early and take Bug to speech class. Man, I guess I am going to have to stick to the old DVDs and check and see what Netflix has for working out.

This has been a pretty good week. I have to miss two semi-important engagements this week due to some other obligations that needed to be taken care of. The engagements that I did participate in kept me from keeping my gym appointment.

I was reminded a lot about the "heart" of a man this week. The heart or Spirit man is developed by feeding it the Word of God. So I have been working on devoting time to study.  God satisfies our mouths with good things, so that our youth is renewed like the Eagles.

I must admit. I am getting older and it is taking me a lot longer to "get it together".

Awesome Week!

This was an organized and very productive week for me. Now mind you, I had a few challenges at the business this week, but that is how it is when you are a business owner. But other than that this was a great week. I worked out consistently and I ate well until yesterday...I had a breakdown. Brownies from the local bakery..."walk in the Spirit and you will not fulfill the lust of the flesh" Galations 5. That is what I have been meditating on this week as well as Psalms 55:22. I decided not to listen to what I had been confessing all week and gave in to them. Good is not the word for those brownies. Great was the word!

I was offered the position of a lifetime this week by one of my mentors. I said, Yes, Yes, and Yes again. I can't wait to get started, but it won't be until this summer. It will fit well with my schedule. I will get it done early in the morning and will be right back in my office before noon. God is good!

There are so many things going on in 2012. I don't know if I will be able to do them all. I have several conference that I want to attend for my professional life and then there are personal reunions that are coming up this year. All of which have a cost and I must remain on my 2012 budget. I'll have to pick and choose.

Nicholas has been teething and has a cold. He ran a fever 103.7 for about 3 days this week. The fever would break with tylenol and motrin, but it would return. We took him to the doctor. No infections or signs of anything that needed to be treated with prescription medication. Today, he is still fussy and has more of a runny nose that he did a few days ago. I don't know if I should take him back in or not.  Bug is off to his "Bitty" basketball league in Olive Branch. It's a basketball training camp for kids ages 2-4. He loves it. I have been attending, but since it is cold and raining today, I did not want to take Nicholas out. He will do a great job today.

I started on the introduction to my manuscript. I am not ready to call it a book yet, no title or outline. I am just writing right now. It feel good. That's my update for this week. I will write later.

 Off to do my in home workout. Arms and abs...