Nicholas turned three months old yesterday. My how fast time flies. It seems like just yesterday he was a newborn. Now his is in the infant category. I wanted to take three month old pictures but this weekend is just not a good weekend. I don't have anything for him to wear. I will shot for next weekend.
Well Mia is getting it together after the baby. My house is finally in order, well at least today, my whole house is clean. I finished in time enough yesterday to head to the sale at Dillard's where I literally lost my mind. Do you know how long it has been since I purchased something for Me. I don't mean for me for the business or for me related to my children, but for Me...Mia. I am still mentally blocked from buying myself clothes. I know it is crazy, but I can't buy clothes because I don't want to buy this size, I will get over it soon. Anyway, I bought a purse. I have always loved bags. The bags were an additional 40% off the lowest ticket price. So I am getting a designer purse for $25. I also bought Fred a lot of clothes for work from the men's department, then I went home.
My brother came to pick-up Bug. He hung out with his cousins and his favorite uncle. Fred stayed at home with Nicholas while Bug and I were gone. It made for a great Saturday.
Today, I'll head to whole foods to get grocery for the week and then I will do a little reading and planning for next week. I have a busy week ahead. I am going to start the Couch to 5k this week and my 21 day sugar fast. My nursing has prevented me from getting started, but I have reduced Nicholas' nursing times to nights only. So in a few weeks, he will be a totally formula fed baby. Terrible, I know. But the decision has been made. Anyway..don't judge me, I am still breastfeeding at night. Give me some credit.
Today, I am going to Target (my favorite store) and purchase some cleaning supplies and some more work out pants for next week's running challenge and some oreos before the fast :-). My plan is to be ready for the Germantown Half, since I won't be able to do St. Jude. It's on!!!
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
A Sunday at Lebonheur
We spent the day at Lebonheur. Fred woke up this morning with stomach pains and we headed to the hospital. We didn't want another experience like we had last year. We got there, and the physician's listened to our concerns and gave bug a Popsicle. Another $250.00 Popsicle. Yep, he is just a little constipated.
I told the physician about our concerns with Bug's language. He gave us an incredible plan for the next couple of months to rule things out. He noticed that we are really worried and desperate to see what is really going on. I just hope that I can bare the answer.
His Struggle
I completed a sample of my son's language. I'm going to analyse it when I get to work on Monday. But I am almost afraid to. It is really terrible. His mind is racing at all times. He don't take a break. None stop. Here is an example:
Bug: Mama, what eat you want?
Me: What eat you want?
Bug: Goldfish, mama
Even when I repeated what he said to me, there was not attempt to self correct. I continued to record his utterances and most of them were backwards like that. He has sensory issues and will not take risks like normal boys. He just runs, but he is afraid to jump or do daring things. I don't know what happened to him. His language was on track until about a year ago. I truly believe that that 3 1/2 week sickness may have set him back some how. We did all we knew to do. He went to Lebonheur 3 times and to his doctor's office. I am going to make a neurological appointment on Monday. We have got to get to the bottom of this.
My husband and I are losing sleep trying to see what went wrong. I have been formally and informally evaluating Bug since the day he was born and I believe that I am correct in saying that I started to notice a difference a few months after his sickness and I tested him in January 2011 and had below average results.
We took him to the local school system for an evaluation, but his scores were not low enough to qualify for services. So there is nothing wrong with his intelligence or cognitive abilities, but as a SLP, I know that language difficulties are sometimes just the tip of the neurological iceberg.
Bug: Mama, what eat you want?
Me: What eat you want?
Bug: Goldfish, mama
Even when I repeated what he said to me, there was not attempt to self correct. I continued to record his utterances and most of them were backwards like that. He has sensory issues and will not take risks like normal boys. He just runs, but he is afraid to jump or do daring things. I don't know what happened to him. His language was on track until about a year ago. I truly believe that that 3 1/2 week sickness may have set him back some how. We did all we knew to do. He went to Lebonheur 3 times and to his doctor's office. I am going to make a neurological appointment on Monday. We have got to get to the bottom of this.
My husband and I are losing sleep trying to see what went wrong. I have been formally and informally evaluating Bug since the day he was born and I believe that I am correct in saying that I started to notice a difference a few months after his sickness and I tested him in January 2011 and had below average results.
We took him to the local school system for an evaluation, but his scores were not low enough to qualify for services. So there is nothing wrong with his intelligence or cognitive abilities, but as a SLP, I know that language difficulties are sometimes just the tip of the neurological iceberg.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Insecure, where have you been? Not so good to see you.
I worked with an old acquaintance today. Just for a few hours for a little pick up work. There was a little tension there because I'd previously asked her to do something for me, but she didn't do it for me she did it for someone else. I think she felt a little guilty about that. I guess we both were. She was so busy trying to explain and I was busy trying to show her how "incredible" I am. It was a mess. It don't take long to put your foot in your mouth, especially when insecurity shows up.
So she was asking some basic questions after ignoring me for an hour. She asked to see pictures of my baby, my husband and asked about the business. When she asked me if I were still running. My heart went to the bottom of my feet and my stomach started to knot up. So immediately, I started to ramble. Well, I...I...I.. It was so pityful. I was trying to prove myself worthy, I still don't like this overweight girl. I thought I was over this. I don't give her time and I don't have much patience for her. For Christ sakes, she just had a baby :-( Tough afternoon.
So she was asking some basic questions after ignoring me for an hour. She asked to see pictures of my baby, my husband and asked about the business. When she asked me if I were still running. My heart went to the bottom of my feet and my stomach started to knot up. So immediately, I started to ramble. Well, I...I...I.. It was so pityful. I was trying to prove myself worthy, I still don't like this overweight girl. I thought I was over this. I don't give her time and I don't have much patience for her. For Christ sakes, she just had a baby :-( Tough afternoon.
Starting Class
Monday, I will begin completing my classes toward my Health and Wellness degree. Yeah, even though I am thirty pounds overweight. Yeah!!! LOL!. I am excited about learning about food and nutrition and how food can help prevent disabilities. Maybe, I will become a nutritionist or a chemist. I don't know, but the possibilities are endless.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Update: Prayer Life
Update:
We have gone organic! The whole family. We are doing this for Bug and for the family as a whole. We started last week and we are continuing this week. We have reduced our meat consumption to only fish (salmon, tilapia, tuna) and occasional poultry. We are buying products from Whole Foods and Fresh Market. We have decided to shop at the farmer's market downtown Memphis on Saturdays. Two weeks into this and I feel great. I have lost 6 pounds. I believe Fred has lost 10 plus. Bug has improved his sleeping a little, but it is too early to tell if our changes have positively affected his brain function yet.
We have gone organic! The whole family. We are doing this for Bug and for the family as a whole. We started last week and we are continuing this week. We have reduced our meat consumption to only fish (salmon, tilapia, tuna) and occasional poultry. We are buying products from Whole Foods and Fresh Market. We have decided to shop at the farmer's market downtown Memphis on Saturdays. Two weeks into this and I feel great. I have lost 6 pounds. I believe Fred has lost 10 plus. Bug has improved his sleeping a little, but it is too early to tell if our changes have positively affected his brain function yet.
My article was approved by the local publication and will be in next month's issue. I am so excited. Maybe I will become a writer. Who knows??? Business is picking up slowly, school is just beginning so people will get back into the "school" and "learning mode" soon.
As far as working out. Well, I haven't been as hard at it as I was last week. I didn't work out yesterday or today. I have just been tired. Oh!!! Worst of all!!!! World!! I have supplemented my breast feedings with formula feedings for Nicholas. I am guilty about that, but once I went back to work pumping while I was away from Nick was not only painful, but stressful. I couldn't do it anymore. So I only nurse in the evenings and at night. Soon, I guess my milk supply will dry up. I am okay with that. He will be just fine.
Frederick is so close to graduating. Yesterday, he met with his advisor to select his classes. He is only taking two classes at a time. I am so proud of him. He has worked so hard and in May 2012, he will be a college graduate.
Next topic:
I have been learning a lot about prayer. Not about the formal stuff, but just talking to God throughout the day. Like He is my friend. Like He is right there in the car with me or at work with me. It is feels strange. I am working on knowing His presence, developing a true friendship and learning about his personality through reading His Word. I've learned the true meaning of forgiveness and the freedom of it. God is awesome and so is growing in Him.....Awesome! Off to read Hebrews. Night-Night!
Next topic:
I have been learning a lot about prayer. Not about the formal stuff, but just talking to God throughout the day. Like He is my friend. Like He is right there in the car with me or at work with me. It is feels strange. I am working on knowing His presence, developing a true friendship and learning about his personality through reading His Word. I've learned the true meaning of forgiveness and the freedom of it. God is awesome and so is growing in Him.....Awesome! Off to read Hebrews. Night-Night!
Friday, August 5, 2011
Running Again; The comfort of Denial
I have been running. I am only at about 1/2 a mile, but I am running. I am surprisingly in good shape to have so much "baby'" weight. Yes, I can still blame my weight gain on the baby. I'd better hurry up and get this weight off before too long 'cause once Nicholas starts getting close to a year old; "baby" weight as an excuse isn't going to fly. I have been reading the book of Hebrews. It is about doing what you know you should do as a believer. It is also about knowing what God has done for us through Jesus. What a great message!
Anyway, I have been having lots of emotions since my last post. It like a roller coaster ride. One minute I am okay and I know that Fred will be okay and that he will catch up to the level of his peers. Then, I go into this sad mode in which I realize how he can't tell me what he did at school and how he seems so "weird", and how other kids laugh at him. He has very immature language skills. I don't want to diagnosis him before his comprehensive evaluation, but I feel it may be a little more than just a "language" impairment. At this point, his language, social, emotional and physical skills should not be questionable. We are past the "give him more time" phase that my denial has placed me in. OH HOW SWEET DENIAL IS! It is so safe and comfy. I don't have to face anything when I am in denial. I love my child (children) so much that all I see or want to see is perfection. And language impaired or ????; perfect is what Lil Fred is.
Anyway, I have been having lots of emotions since my last post. It like a roller coaster ride. One minute I am okay and I know that Fred will be okay and that he will catch up to the level of his peers. Then, I go into this sad mode in which I realize how he can't tell me what he did at school and how he seems so "weird", and how other kids laugh at him. He has very immature language skills. I don't want to diagnosis him before his comprehensive evaluation, but I feel it may be a little more than just a "language" impairment. At this point, his language, social, emotional and physical skills should not be questionable. We are past the "give him more time" phase that my denial has placed me in. OH HOW SWEET DENIAL IS! It is so safe and comfy. I don't have to face anything when I am in denial. I love my child (children) so much that all I see or want to see is perfection. And language impaired or ????; perfect is what Lil Fred is.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Back on Track 2011
Mia's Track:
Wow! I feel like the old "new" Mia again. I have completed 4 "Good" Days of eating right and working out. My whole outlook has changed. The baby is sleeping through the night and now I can hit the gym in the morning. That didn't take long at all. I thought that it would take more time to be able to go to the gym at 4:30am, but no problem. Fred is so supportive. He comes and gets Nicholas when I am ready to hit the treadmill.
Anyway, I know that I am an overachiever and worse than that my patience is thinner than thread, so with that said, I am ready to start running after only 4 days. I started interval training today with my jog. 2 min jog;1min walking for 15 minutes, then I completed 30 minute on the EFX machine and 30 minutes of total body strength training (arms, abs, legs, butt, shoulders, back). It feels so good to be able to workout.
The scripture readings and inspirational music is such a great time for "Me". I love my "Me" time. All of you out there that have plenty of "Me" time, please, please take advantage of it. It is hard to come by when you have kids.
Bug's Track:
Bug was evaluated by a wonderful speech therapist in Memphis yesterday. I am so pleased with the choice I made. My friend asked why didn't I go through the schools, "it's free",she said. (she is a school SLP), but as a private practitioner, I know how much my clients mean to me and I feel that a private practitioner would be more willing to give 110% to my child than one in the schools that has tons of kids to treat. Plus...I have finally learned that you get what you pay for. His scores on the PLS5 (preschool language scale for all the non speechies. This test looks as how well a child uses and understands the rules of communication). His scores fell within the mild impairment range, but it was just enough to create a delay of about 12 months as compared to children his same age. He needs assistance with writing as well, but I don't know any private occupational therapist and my OT friend told me to make sure that the OT has a certain certification, so I'll have to shop around. Hopefully, by the beginning of next summer he will have out grown some of these mild delays.
Anyway, like I didn't have enough on my plate, we start therapy 2x a week. He is such a good boy and a hard worker. I believe that he will do great and make incredible gains. It was funny. The SLP that evaluated my son said, "I know you from somewhere, I know your name." I was tempted to not tell her what profession I was in or that I was in private practice less than an hour away, but once she started trying to figure out who I was, I knew that I would have to come clean. I told her and she began to say, "well, you already know what to do." That is true, but we all know that it is not easy to be objective with your child. I told her to treat me and my child as if we know nothing about therapy and give him whatever you would a child that was not that of an SLP. I told her that I am not here to be nosy or to compete. I just want my child get on track. She was happy to work with us. I am very optimistic. What a great feeling! Hope!
Our Tracks:
Well two tracks to healthy lives have begun. One for mommy, and one for Buggie. Well, mommy's just has a few bumps in the road, but the track never stopped. Bug's is just beginning and I look forward to the progress we both will make. I will write again soon.....Gotta' get on track.. Chugga-Chugga-Choo-Choo.
Wow! I feel like the old "new" Mia again. I have completed 4 "Good" Days of eating right and working out. My whole outlook has changed. The baby is sleeping through the night and now I can hit the gym in the morning. That didn't take long at all. I thought that it would take more time to be able to go to the gym at 4:30am, but no problem. Fred is so supportive. He comes and gets Nicholas when I am ready to hit the treadmill.
Anyway, I know that I am an overachiever and worse than that my patience is thinner than thread, so with that said, I am ready to start running after only 4 days. I started interval training today with my jog. 2 min jog;1min walking for 15 minutes, then I completed 30 minute on the EFX machine and 30 minutes of total body strength training (arms, abs, legs, butt, shoulders, back). It feels so good to be able to workout.
The scripture readings and inspirational music is such a great time for "Me". I love my "Me" time. All of you out there that have plenty of "Me" time, please, please take advantage of it. It is hard to come by when you have kids.
Bug's Track:
Bug was evaluated by a wonderful speech therapist in Memphis yesterday. I am so pleased with the choice I made. My friend asked why didn't I go through the schools, "it's free",she said. (she is a school SLP), but as a private practitioner, I know how much my clients mean to me and I feel that a private practitioner would be more willing to give 110% to my child than one in the schools that has tons of kids to treat. Plus...I have finally learned that you get what you pay for. His scores on the PLS5 (preschool language scale for all the non speechies. This test looks as how well a child uses and understands the rules of communication). His scores fell within the mild impairment range, but it was just enough to create a delay of about 12 months as compared to children his same age. He needs assistance with writing as well, but I don't know any private occupational therapist and my OT friend told me to make sure that the OT has a certain certification, so I'll have to shop around. Hopefully, by the beginning of next summer he will have out grown some of these mild delays.
Anyway, like I didn't have enough on my plate, we start therapy 2x a week. He is such a good boy and a hard worker. I believe that he will do great and make incredible gains. It was funny. The SLP that evaluated my son said, "I know you from somewhere, I know your name." I was tempted to not tell her what profession I was in or that I was in private practice less than an hour away, but once she started trying to figure out who I was, I knew that I would have to come clean. I told her and she began to say, "well, you already know what to do." That is true, but we all know that it is not easy to be objective with your child. I told her to treat me and my child as if we know nothing about therapy and give him whatever you would a child that was not that of an SLP. I told her that I am not here to be nosy or to compete. I just want my child get on track. She was happy to work with us. I am very optimistic. What a great feeling! Hope!
Our Tracks:
Well two tracks to healthy lives have begun. One for mommy, and one for Buggie. Well, mommy's just has a few bumps in the road, but the track never stopped. Bug's is just beginning and I look forward to the progress we both will make. I will write again soon.....Gotta' get on track.. Chugga-Chugga-Choo-Choo.
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