Holiday Vacation

Christmas was great. Buggie got so many gifts from Santa, that he couldn't even decide what to play with. I purchased Fred some cologne. Fred bought me a pair of running pants with the pocket on the bum. He also bought a gold bracelet and a running watch.

This week, I am off work. I will be creating myself a little schedule for stepping up my workout program and nutrition program. Yeah!!! I am getting back on track.

The pain of waiting

Well, as I have mentioned before, I am going to rid myself of relaxed hair and become a chemical free woman inside and out. The wait is almost driving me "bats". I have two different hair textures going on...kinky and straight. Yesterday, I almost got my husband to 'buzz it' but I realized that I didn't want to look like a little boy for Christmas...I am going to get some braids today if I can find a braiding salon that is open on Sunday. If that doesn't happen, I guess I'll throw on a wig.

I got threw my rough days. I feel about 89% better, but now my son has caught another 'bug'. It only affects him at night. He gets a fever and sweats, but in the morning he is fine. I just don't want to take him to the doctor for them to prescribe more antibiotics. He doesn't need to be on those again. We are just going to build our immune system and let him fight it out. Sounds cruel, but I'm not into drugging up my kid. He'll be fine. I have learned that one thing this year, a little tylenol-motrin-frozen treat and...He will be fine.

Our group run yesterday was great. We finished 6 miles in 1 hour. Prior to yesterdays run, I purchased some thick "ski" gloves to warm my hands during the run. I was so excited about them. So, I put my regular gloves on and then I put the thicker gloves on. I didn't use the hand warmer this time because it wouldn't fit. Once I got out of my truck, they laughed at me for having on what they called "boxing gloves". GUESS WHAT! My hands still froze like I didn't have anything on them. Do I have some kind of weird hand condition? What am I going to do on our runs. Most of our runs will be cold until about the middle of March. Although our race is in April and will be a warm race, our training is going on now. I have to find a way to get these hands warm so that I can get through these runs...they only get longer.

After our run, the group met at Fundamental Fitness in Memphis off of Poplar Avenue for our fitness and nutrition clinic. The owner, a physical therapist and certified personal trainer gave us tips for staying healthy during this training. I learned that I am not nearly stretching enough or strength training enough. I need to focus more on stretching. She gave us some really useful handouts that demonstrated the stretches and exercise that will help prevent some of the injuries that may occur. This was especially useful for me since I have had several problems with my right ankle, right achilles tendon, right tibia. She also stress the importance of core strength and stability. Not just for runs or training for runs, but during everyday activities, walking, standing and sitting. One of the group members asked her about nutrition. She did not speak to this much because she is a phyisical therapist, not a nutritionist, however, she did say that she uses food as fuel, not entertainment. She attempts to eat all of the required daily vitamins and minerals. She doen't eat processed foods or white flours or sugars. She said that we need to eat 'good' food while we are training.
That's what I am going to do. This lady motivated me so much. She didn't say anything new, she just said the right thing at the right time for me. As you all know, I have been in a slump for the last two months or so. I have still been losing weight and making changes, but I have been losing a little patience with myself. The pain of waiting on this weight can get unbearable at times. I just want to race to the finish line of a healthy life and size 8 jeans as fast as I can, but I see that God is letting me walk to the finish line so that I can enjoy the sights and sounds of this journey, meet interesting people that can help me to maintain success.

Rough Days

The last two days have been pretty rough. I have had some kind of stomach virus or bug or something. We have all had it. Fred, Little Fred and I have all had this bug. I managed to drag myself to the gym yesterday morning, but I was only able to do the stationary bike for thirty minutes. After that, I went back home to prepare for the day. With much effort, I was able to visit all of my clients, but I was unable to eat until, later that night. Believe you me, I was able to eat enough from the time I got home until the time I went to bed. I made up for lost time.

Today was a little better, my stomach was still a little upset today. I made it through the day. I managed to complete 28 minutes on the elliptical and three miles on the treadmill.

I have been having pains and aches after my runs. My ankles swell, my knees hurt and some times my muscles are sore. I often would grip about the pain to my husband, but I guess after six months of gripping, my husband has had enough. He told me that aches and pain are a part of the game. He pointed out how athletes sit with ice on their knees during games...so in other words...he was telling me to get it together and realize that if I am going to run and lift weights that I am going to have a little pain from using my muscles in a way that I really have never done to this extreme before. I took his advise and had a great workout this morning. Thank God for such a great husband.

Yesterdays weight in put me back at the weight that I was before Thanksgiving. I over ate for three days and it took me three weeks to get the weight off. What a lesson! A moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips.

Hill training

Our run this morning consisted of hill training. We ran up a hill, walked down the hill six times. After that, some of the girls decided to walk a 5k, so I joined them. The walk was great. We talked and laughed and had a great time. Next week.....6 mile run and a fitness and nutrition clinic afterwards. I can't wait.

As far as my eating, I had and am continuing to have a great week. I have just been taking one meal at a time. I almost have the same enthusiasm that was present when I first started my healthy journey. I guess you go through ups and downs when attempting to make changes toward a healthy life. I'm in it for the long hall.

My mom and I will go shopping this afternoon so I must remember to do just that...shop, not eat out of control... I'll let you know how it goes.

Mia

12-7-09

I didn't get to see any of my patients today. I stayed at home with Bug. He was pulling at his ear last night so this morning I took him to the doctor. It was an ear infection. The doctor prescribed some antibiotics. I decided to take bug to school anyway. Well, I took him to school and made it in to my office. Erica quickly began to describe how bad an ear ache feels. I immediately called the school to let them know that I was going to pick him up. So that is exactly what I did. Bug and Mommy hung out all day today. Bug got plenty of rest and relaxation.

This morning, I walked on the treadmill, completed 20 minutes on the elliptical and did about 20 minutes of weight training. I really wanted to listen to my body today more than I wanted to complete the next assignment on my training schedule. My foot and shin is telling me that it needs to rest for two days after the Saturday runs. I hear you loud and clear..body...I hear you loud and clear.

Tomorrow, I will be doing a couple of make-up sessions, my regular clients and then the mid day break to weigh in. I have begun to get back on track, not like I was when I first started this journey, but better than my Thanksgiving week. This week I am going to focus on consistency in organizing my thoughts, positive quotes and my exercise routine. I will attempt to follow the TNT schedule if my body will allow me to, but I am going to chart out some other beneficial exercises for the days when running is not on the schedule.

I recently found out that an old co-worker of mine has a family member who is battling Lymphoma. I told the team about him as soon as I got to the group run on Saturday and the coordinator gave me a t-shirt to give to our fighter. He is now one of the honorees that I have chosen to race for. What a great feeling to know someone who is fighting this fight. I have only personally know those that have fought the fight against blood cancer and lost.

This year was and continues to be such a great year. We only have a few more weeks left in this year-2009.  I will take the same positive changes into 2010. I know that will be a great and prosperous year for my business, my health and for my family.

R.I.C.E. and Good Breakfast

Yesterday's run was great. My leg and foot stopped hurting. I got some articles from the cool running website and followed the suggestions for injuries. The acronym of R.I.C.E was used...Rest ,Ice, Compression and elevation. I used all of these this week and was able to run five miles with the group. After our run we had breakfast at a restaurant near the U of M call Brother Junipers. They serve breakfast. Its a really nice place.

My eating has gotten off track. I don't quite understand what the deal is.

I am going to the bookstore today to purchase a magazine dedicated to runners. I need to start studying my new art.

After the Big Holiday Weigh

The run Saturday was amazing. Shelby farms is so beautiful and the run was easy. We completed four miles. Next Saturday we will complete five mile and then have breakfast with the fundraising coordinator.

I went to my weight management meeting. Boy oh Boy!!! I weighed in with a 9.4 pound gain. Can you believe that I gained that much weight in 5 days. I did fairly well on Thanksgiving. It was after Thanksgiving that was hard. The leftovers, the holiday vacation and just plain old getting off track. I had a really great meeting. I was inspired to get back on track and enjoy being on a program that allows for mistakes and mess ups.

For my next challenge, I purchased a pair of pants that I want to be able to get in  and stay in at the end of this journey. I bought a pair of jeans size.....8. Yes, isn't that a dream. It seems so impossible, but just six months ago a size 14 fit me just like the size 8 fit today. So it can happen. Health can happen and if the size 8 is smaller or bigger than I want to be. Hey...no problem...revision of goals is a great thing. I am thankful for this journey. All the ups and the downs, the twists and the turns...makes it interesting.

After Thanksgiving

If I had to grade myself for yesterday. I would give myself a C+. I ate pretty good, but I tasted a little of everything at three homes. WOW!!! BUT, I did much better this Thanksgiving than last year. '

....I didn't go shopping this morning. I went to the gym, jogged 3 miles and elliptical training for 30 minutes. After that, Fred, Bug and I went to Wal-Mart to buy juice. We just felt like we have all we need.  We don't need any electronics or anything that was on sale. So we chose not to fight the crowd this morning.

I really want to go to the casino with my cousins tonight. The ones that came in from Nashville and St. Louis are meeting at the Isle of Capri in Lula, MS. It is an hour drive from me and they are not meeting until 8:30. We don't have a babysitter and Fred is tired. Looks like I will be staying at home this time. I guess I'll hang out next time.

Tomorrow the TNT run is four miles in distance. We will be meeting at Shelby Farms again. I am quite sure that I will be one of the very few that will be running tomorrow.That reminds me, I'd better check my email to make sure that we are still running tomorrow.

Well, I'll write tomorrow to let you know how the run went. Night-Night. 

My current transition style

Today, I was preparing for Thanksgiving as I mentioned in the previous blog, but I was also thinking about my hair. Yesterday, I took the wig out. My hairdresser sewed in a wig and because I sweat and exercise everyday.....it itched like crazy. So, I took it out and was in a great crisis. Now that I am transitioning to natural hair, I have two different hair textures and I have difficulty trying to manage it. So she (my hair stylist) called me today and suggested that I do the "big chop" or get some braids if I feel that I don't have the desired new growth length.

She was right. I don't know much about braids. I have had them one time in my life and it was a horrible experience for me, so I was a little hesitant, but She is so right!!! Braiding is what is going to get me to the length that I desire while still looking presentable to my clients and family.

Here is a picture:

The Weigh In, and Thanksgiving preparations

I still lost weight. Can you believe it? After taking a break from my plan, I still lost weight. The meeting was about being assertive without being rude during family meals. People try to offer food and tell you that you don't need to lose any weight. We just talked about some ways to deal with these types of challenges during the holiday season. It was a great class. My work out this morning and yesterday morning was especially good. I don't know exactly why. Maybe I had a different frame of mind. I felt like I had included God in what I was doing. It was as if I was taking care of my body to honor Him. I felt so free. I have also been including Him in all of my meals. I pray to God before every meal, even my snacks. This is a new habit that I am developing so it is not perfected but it is definitely in the works.

Today, I am going to go to the grocery store and get the ingredients for our Thanksgiving meal that we are going to have at home. I plan on making lots of great tasting veggies and healthy desserts.

Fast, Thanksgiving Plan

Well, I took the days off from the plan..a vacation from my eating plan. Ate too much and then fasted on Sunday. I gave the day to the Lord and prayed for discipline and endurance. I listened to inspirational  CDs on discipline and self control. Like I stated Saturday, I am not a fan of eating out of control. It doesn't please me like it did before. I think I may have gained a little weight due to my "diet vacation". I am not worried about that. I am excited about having a good week with my family as the Thanksgiving holiday approaches.

Fred always wants to have a meal at our home to eat once we have eaten at our relatives homes. I hope he understands that our "at home" meal is going to be very different. Lower in calories and lower in fat.

Well, I go weigh in tomorrow, but I am going to focus on what I can learn from the meeting and not on the scale. I'll let you know how it goes.

Weigh In, Taking a break

I am still losing weight. Even though, I haven't been 100% on my eating plan. Tuesdays weigh in resulted in a 44 pound loss. I am so glad that I am losing still even though I feel like I am not doing as well as I have in the past. I spoke to the leader about my feelings. I let her know that I am a little tired of doing what I am doing. Even though I am losing weight and people are complimenting me. I still have come to a point where the "honeymoon" of it all and the excitement of it all is fading. I am truly starting to see that this is something that I will have to do whether I feel like it or not. It is hard not to be driving by your feelings, but to be successful I am going to have to put my feelings aside and do what I know that I am supposed to do. Well anyway, my leader suggested that I take a break from dieting.....she emphasized not going overboard but just to take a break. Well that is exactly what I did!!! Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of this week I took a break. Of course I didn't eat as much as I would have when I first started but I ate some things that I haven't eaten in six months. I continued to exercise. I have to do that. Oh how I wish I was as excited about eating right as I am about exercise. Things would be so easy then. Well, I feel like crap. I feel like a big trash can filled with junk. So much for taking a break. ITS NOT WORTH IT!!! I thought I was missing out on something. NO! NO! I haven't felt this sick or full in months. I won't do it again. Falling of the horse one day is one thing, But falling off for three days has not been fun. I like eating healthy. I will continue to do it from now on no matter how I feel.

I am on my way to our third TNT training session. We are going to run 3 miles this morning. Once I return, I am going to purge some of the old clothes in my closet, do my workout schedule and my eating plan for next week (including Thanksgiving Day) My goal is to have control on this day too. I don't want to gain weight. I will reach a weight of 180 pounds by December 31st. Nothing will stop me from reaching that. Of course I will allow myself to have some of the food during the holidays, but one plate, one serving is my motto.

Doctor's Visit and the plateau

I went to the doctor for a check up and a refill on my thyroid medication yesterday. The physician was very pleased with my progress. My BMI has decreased since my first visit in February from 34.4 to 30.0. I asked her how much did she think I should way at my height and frame. She told me a good goal for me is about 160 pounds. This was my original goal. We actually agree on my goal. The doctor continued to praise me for my efforts. At the same time she was telling me how great I am doing, I was feeling as if I couldn't go on any more. I guess I am at a plateau. I am going to my weight management meeting today. I plan on reviewing my goal weight with the leader.

As I am on vacation this week, I am going to make a schedule for myself that will include actual exercises for strength training and cardio. A schedule similar to my meal plan. This schedule will include cleaning my home, spending time with God, working out and family time. Everything will be scheduled. That's the way that I am able to stay on track. I have attempted this several times, but I haven't scheduled time with God or scheduled exact exercises for various body parts. What works for me is scheduling.

My mother-in-law asked for some meal ideas to enhance her eating plan. I was supposed to do it last night, but I didn't get around to it today. I will definitely do it today. I was excited to be able to help her get her healthy goals established.

Well, I am on my way to the meeting. I will let you know what I learn. I know that I haven't lost any weight, but I am still working toward a change. Maybe when I attend this meeting, I will gain a little more motivation to stay in it.

Getting on the Wagon and Staying On Wagon with a seatbelt

Yesterday's run was a lot of fun. Running in a group is so motivating. We talked and laughed the whole four miles. After the run, we had a clinic (an educational workshop about running topics) on running gear and race preparation gagets. I was a little overwhelmed. I really was unable to determine what I really need and what I don't. It is so much to take in. I must say that I didn't realize that running was such a science. There is a lot to the body when it is preparing for long distance runs. The running outfit that Fred and I purchased at the Nike Clearance Store was perfect. It was exactly what the owner of the running store was showing us. I got mine at a fraction of the cost. Running material is expensive, but after listening to the "science" behind the material and design of the running clothing. I understand why it costs what it does.

I am still in the process of transitioning to natural hair. I have not relaxed since September. I am excited because I can see a small amount of new growth. This week I am on vacation.( Fred and I are not leaving the city, but we both have taken the week off to get some much needed rest.) I am going to get a sew-in. I want a sew in that looks natural. My hair stylist and I are going to the beauty supply store to find some styles that will work for me.  Wednesday of this week is the big day. That's when my new look will emerge.

Yesterday, we went to a classmate of my son's birthday party. I ate pizza and cake. Then we went to a Grizzlies basketball game and I ate at the game as well. I don't overeat often, but when I taste just a little bit of forbidden food it sets me off. It's like I lose all control. I don't care how much hard work I put into myself, when I allow myself to eat junk, I can't manage to get a grip.

Today, I attended the church that I have been attending. The pastor preached on getting physically fit as well as spiritually fit. It was just what I needed to hear. He supported his message with the same scriptures that I have been reading and meditating. Fred got a chance to go with me, and he stated that the message hit home with him as well. We all need to do a better job of being the best we can be. I have gotten better, but I still have major areas of weakness (procrastination, laziness, inconsistency, low self-esteem and unforgiveness) I have gotten better in all of these areas, but my weakness in these areas have caused me to seek fulfillment. I have replaced the need for God and His love with the desire for food. I haven't taken the time to make a schedule for spending time with God. Don't get me wrong, I have made great progress. I have lost a lot of weight and I feel better about myself, I am able to do more now that I could this time last year because of my increased energy level. All this being said, I know that if I don't get this overeating together, I won't enjoy this freedom from food for long. I have got to get these days of mindless eatting and binge moments behind me. My submission to God will get me there. My meditation on scriptures, the putting thoughts of God and his goodness above the thought of  'what am i gonna eat next' will help me get to my goal weight and maintain it.

Tomorrow's exciting Run

Tomorrow, we (TNT) are meeting at fleet feet to run 4 miles and then shop the store for the required clothing for great runs. Tonight, Fred took me to the Nike Clearance store in Whitehaven to find some running tights at a price that Mia Cole will pay. The regular price for a pair costs about $70. I was able to purchase a pair tonight for $14.99.

I went to TGI Fridays with Erica (my office assistant). I ate 1/2 of a Turkey burger and a side salad with vinegar dressing. She at a regular entree. I DID NOT FEEL DEPRIVED!!! Can you believe that! I was not deprived. I was satisfied with my meal. This is a great feeling. Its a feeling of freedom.

Sick Bug II

Because Bug is still under the weather, Fred (husband) and I had to tag team going to work today. He worked the first part of the day and then I went to my job the second part of the day. I was able to drive to Memphis and weigh in. I lost 2.6 pounds. Yeah me.

While at home, one of my old clients' mother was going to visit me at the office, but I could be there because of Bug. We talked on the phone for about 30 minutes. She gave me tons of advise about healthy eating, managing a family and workouts. The major thing I drew from the conversation was her statement that she lost motivation. How do I make sure that I don't lose that??? Write new goals, keep doing what I am doing now.....

I went 6 days without eating a snack after dinner. I loved that success. Tonight, since I did so well by avoiding snacks after dinner, I ate 1 serving of ginger snaps. It set me off!! I ate the ginger snaps, then sun chips, then a small, small serving of oreo ice-cream. That says it all. I know for sure now that I can't handle processed snacks. Only fruits and healthy snacks after dinner. I still did better than I usually do.

Sick Bug

Bug is still not feeling well, so I decided to cancel my morning appointments and keep him. Its times like these when we wish we had close family members. Because I am self-employed, when I don't work, I don't get paid. Anyway, he seems to be doing better, but I didn't want to send him to school today with diarrhea.

I will probably have to go to my weight management meeting tonight seeing that Bug has an evaluation tomorrow at my usual meeting time.

I was able to begin the first day of my individual training for the marathon. I jogged two miles and completed two miles on the elliptical trainer. I will complete the strength training tonight. I want to try some strength training classes. These are not offered at my gym. I also want to do spinning and swimming to add more variety to my workouts. Maybe since Bug and I are just at the house we could check the place out.

I looked at some old pictures yesterday of me during my yo-yo diet years in college and graduate school. I believe that I have lost over two hundred pounds if you count all of the weight I have lost over countless diets. Thank God for deliverance. I'm finally free.

Trip to Oxford

I am so disappointed that I couldn't go to church. As I sit here, as the church service is going on, I wonder what I am missing. What is the pastor preaching about that would help me in stay faithful to my healthy life. Buggie threw-up all night last night. Even though he seems to be doing better, I don't want to go to church and then he throws up all over the pews. Well, I will read my daily proverbs and look at writing some more inspirational scriptures for my gym readings.

Oh, I forgot to post for yesterday's run with the Team in Training. Well, our first run was 3.5 miles. We ran at Shelby Farms park in Shelby county, TN in Memphis. I have been there several times, but not with the eyes that I have now. The park is beautiful. As I ran with the team, I noticed the beauty of God's creations. The life in the trees, leaves, bison, birds, the grass and the ponds. I saw Him in everything. It reminded me of His stability. Where I am inconsistent, Him living in me gives me the power to be consistent. Just as he is consistent and faithful to the trees, bison, leaves, grass, birds, he is consistent with me, He is faithful to me, He will always be there to help me. Always.

My fellow team members all are excited and encouraging. We spent time getting to know each other. I feel like completing the marathon is the goal that I will attempt to reach. This was due to the encouragement of another team member. She suggested that I train with the full marathon runners and if I feel that I want to change we can go down to the 1/2 marathon training. I agreed to this with her as we both are first time marathon runners.

Yesterday, we also went to Oxford where I saw my long time friend from college, Tameshia and the rest of my in laws. Tameshia looks great. She is a fellow speech-language pathologist who has managed to lose weight and keep it off by recognizing her need to be healthy. It was great seeing her. She is such an inspiratin to me. I was greeted with tons of compliments on my weight loss. Everyone was telling me how great I looked. With that came tons of excuses for why they aren't doing what they need to to be healthy. I heard the words "Lose weight". Everyone was saying "I want to lose weight", "I need to lose weight". The need to lose weight can't be your focus for attaining a healthy life. That is where I went wrong the hundreds of times, I set out to lose weight. Once I get there...to my goal or near my goal and the weight wasn't my "reward" anymore, I lost focus. I lost the drive to continue...because I had the wrong reason as my driving force.  You've got to purpose in your heart to be healthy for God. Your purpose has to be to serve Him. To have others look at you and see God's discipline and self-control working in your life. That's the reason for long term weight management success. That's it. That's the bottom line. Anything outside of that is not permanent and won't last.

The Future and future pregnancy

Another hurdle. Today, I was a little anxious about the future. I know....I know...just keep your mind on today. I know that, but I have to be honest and say that I am a little nervous about having to gain weight for my next pregnancy. We are planning to extend our family some time after finishing the marathon in April. Just the thought of gaining weight during pregnancy after I have worked so hard to get it off makes me a little nervous...okay a lot nervous. Is there anyone who has managed to continue their exercise and healthy diet during pregnancy? I don't know anyone who has. 


 

Minus 40lbs

I have been dancing around a forty pound loss for the last three weeks. I would gain 2 then lose 2. But today I weighed in with a 40 lb loss. I am officially at my half way mark. I am very proud of myself.

My husband made a comment today that really made an impression on me. He said, "I can't wait until exercise comes automatic like it does for you". A statement like that was really refreshing to hear. I am glad that my husband noticed how important exercise it to me.

The kick off to the LLS Team in Training is this Saturday. I can hardly wait. I am so excited that I am finally working toward one of my health goals....completing a marathon.

Thanks be to God for giving me the tools to be successful in my quest to be healthy.

A Calm Walk

This morning, I woke up later that I anticipated. I rushed to put on my Race for the Cure t-shirt t I rhat I picked up yesterday in the rain. I skipped breakfast because I definitely wanted to be on the interstate at 7:30am. When I got on the interstate,there was a wreck that held up traffic. So I took an alternate route. I got there!!! Yeah, but I was so far in the back that I didn't know when the race had started. I decided to walk the race. I decided at the starting line that I would walk it since I will be starting my marathon training next week. I really just wanted to enjoy the walk and watch the people bonding together to find a cure for breast cancer. Because today is Halloween, a lot of walker and runners had on costumes. I enjoyed the scenery of Germantown, TN. This was a great 3.1 mile walk and I look forward to participating next year.

Race for the Cure and other stuff

I had a few things on my mind today. The race for the cure is here. Saturday, I will complete my second 5k since the beginning of my journey..... The race for the cure. I feel a little unprepared since I had to take so much time off because of my ankle. I feel like I will be able to complete this race since I have been exercising everyday.  I also had my son on my mind .Today is my son's second birthday. We had a party for him on Saturday, he took cookies to his classmates today and we ate a IHOP to celebrate. What a lucky little boy. I was lucky to get a cake on my birthday when I was coming up.

The one thing I didn't have on my mind was the anxiety from the scale as I weighed in today at my weight management meeting. I lost the 2lbs that I gained last week. I was very happy about that. Now I can see my goal weight. I am so close---I can almost taste it. It seems as though the closer I get the harder it is to stay on track. I have started to find ways to cheat and sneak. But I know that this is a spiritual war that manifests in the physical as do all spiritual things.  I have to keep making my Spirit man stronger so that I'll be able to keep going forever.

A Birthday Party for Buggie

Yesterday was great! Our family celebrated my son's second birthday at the Children's Museum of Memphis. We had a Thomas & Friends theme. He loved everything. He also enjoyed the exhibits at the museum.
I also had my own eye opening experience at the birthday party. Weight loss compliments. It felt so good to hear the compliments of my family members. "You look great","Wow, you've lost a lot of weight". My sister said that I even looked younger. My brother said that I look like I did in high school. Just when I was feeling a little down about my setbacks, these compliments lifted my spirits and opened my eyes to my success. Well, I am off to get ready for church. I will write later.

Team in Training for Leukemia and Lymphoma

Thursday night, I went to an information meeting for the LLS Team in Training program. This program is designed to train individuals or groups of individuals to walk/run/bike marathons, 1/2 marathons and triatholons. Participants are required to raise $2,000 to full participate in the program. I am very excited about the training, but a little nervous about asking people for money. I think that people will support this cause.
We also get to run in someones honor. I have been thinking about it for a couple days. When I go back to work on monday, I will fax the entry form to the director. Soooo, don't be alarmed when I ask you to donate.

Recommittment

This week was great. I had a few set backs in my eating due to family outings. I will just jump back on the horse like I always do. I can never give up.

I had to go to my weight management meeting at a different time because my son got sick at my normal time. The other meeting was good, but I can't commit to that time because of my desire to be with my son in the evenings. The instructor talked about recommitment. She stated that weight loss is "recommitting"every day. That's what you have to do. Recommit to being the best you can be. She also talked about wanting a healthy life so bad that you are willing to change....... even when it is hard to make changes.... even when it is uncomfortable to say...NO.

What a great refresher! I know all of these things. I have heard them. I've said them. But at this point in my healthy life, it was great to hear these things again.

Today, at the half

Everyday is  a new day. A new day! A new day! The past doe not matter. Tomorrow is too far away, but today is easy to manage. I can see it. I can touch it. Today is here. One second-one minute-one hour at a time. This realization is what has given me the keys to be successful at changing my whole life. Every challenge can be overcome by taking it one second at a time, one minute at a time, one hour at a time, one day at a time, one week at a time knowing that God is by your side. Faithfulness, Self-Control and endurance is inside me. It has always been there.

Today, I weighed in with a 3 pound loss. I am at the halfway mark to my goal weight. At the half way mark, I am no longer overly concerned with how to keep the weight off. I am no longer afraid of gaining it back. I am in this to win. My days of  "trying" to lose weight and keep it off are over. I have reach the point of no return. It feels too good to be free. It feels too good to fill the voids of my life with God's love. That's all I was longing for-His love. I tried to replace His love with people pleasing, and sweet snacks, but God is what I was starving for.

Spill Over into Everything

I have noticed that since my transformation, spill over has occurred. My eyes have been open to the inconsistency in other areas in my life. (Since my focus has not been on finding the next sweet snack) I have become much more organized everyday. I procrastinate a lot less and everyday I get better at being more disciplined in not only my eating and working out, but my life in general. I have begun to attend church regularly. No longer is church an option, but a must. These are some of the new principals that I will begin applying in my life:

1. Devotional time with God daily (prayer and bible readings)
2. Exercise 5 consecutive mornings a week(cardio/strength training)
3. Do something outside myself (help others)
4. Plan everything that I do
5. Everything in its place.
6. DO IT NOW!!!
7. Spend specific time with myself, my husband, son, and our family as a whole.
8. Recite my positive quote and scripture daily.
9. Strive for Excellence, not perfection. Forgive myself and others
10. Be the best I can be at everything I do. Give 100%.

I have realized that inconsistency was probably a bigger problem for me than my eating habits. So I have been working on planning everything I do. I have used this principle to be successful in weight loss by planning every meal and every work out session. Now, I will plan every activity in my day for home and office and social events. This will help me to increase my consistency. I know this will help me. I have seen it work in my weight loss. Let's see it spill over........

Good News: My sister is now a license practical nurse (LPN). She is so excited. I am happy for her. She has a new energy and is excited about entering the work force.

Tuesday 10/06/2009

I completed the 24 hour cleanse. Not only was I able give my digestive system a rest, I also was able to think a little more clearly during those 24 hours. My husband, Fred, also completed the fast. I love when we do things to better ourselves together. I think he is just about to join me on this journey. Sometimes just being an example motivates people.

I had a 4 pound loss this week. Now, I am back on track for my goal for this month. This week in our weight management meeting we are to keep find ways to keep variety in our meals. I have been attempting to do this, but often I like to stay on the safe side. I enjoy not having to think too hard about what I am going to eat. I will try a new receipe this week. I am pretty good about including a new receipe every couple of weeks.

Last week, my exercise routine included the stationary bike and strength training. I was still able to lose weight with the changes. My ankle/achilles has experienced lots of relief.  Yesterday and today, I used the elliptical machine and strength training. Today, I even jogged for 2 minutes on the treadmill. I am slowly on my way back to jogging.

24 Hour Master Cleanse

I ate well today. Tomorrow, I will be completing a 24 hour master cleanse. I have been preparing my mind to do this. Completing this 24 hour cleanse will give my digestive system a rest and allow my organs to rid itself of toxins. For the next 24 hours. I will consume 10 to 12 10oz glasses of spring water mixed with the following ingredients: cayanne  pepper,  freshly squeezed lemon juice, Grade B maple syrup (found in an organic food store). At the end the day, I am to drink herbal cleansing tea. Wish me luck. I haven't been on a fast for over two years. I am also completing my schedules for next week for work outs and meals. I'll let you know how tomorrow goes.

Real Talk with a License Physical Therapist

Well World,

I have been a little stressed over the fact that my ankle is injured. Yes, I still have confidence in myself, Yes, I still believe that I will reach my goal of becoming healthy, but I must say, I have been and continue to be a little down about my ankle. This morning,  I searched my phone contact list and text messaged a former colleague who happens to be a license physical therapist. I informed her of my injury and gave her a little history of what I had been doing. OF COURSE, she said exactly what I didn't want her to say...get some rest don't put any stress on my ankle. I was sooooo not happy to hear that news again. But I asked her because she is a professional and she knows what she is talking about. So I am going to listen. I was under the impressions that I could still jog lightly or do the elliptical machine, treadmill or the stationary bike, but after our conversation...None of these things were recommended...so I was really sad.......tears.....about not doing any cardio at all. So, I guess I will focus on the ankle exercises that she recommended and strength training for the next seven days. This also means that I am going to really have to watch my calorie intake since no cardio will be taking place this week.

Scriture for the Week

Remember to keep saying your positive statement daily. Mine is as follows: "Today, I will be the best I can be in all that I do physically, mentally and spiritually. The choices that I make today will positively effect my goals to reach and maintain my healthy weight, be successful in my business and to be the best I can be for my family. Today, I thank God for being with me and giving me all the tools I need to be consistent, faithful and positive."

Scripture for the week:

Philippians 3:13-14

Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Pinpointed My Emotions

What a great day!!! I came to work early and had great devotional time with the Lord. Phillipians 3 is a great chapter to read for learning to forget things in the past and pressing toward your goals. Paul teaches us in this chapter to keep our mind on Christ and not the flesh or your human make-up (mind,will and emotions) because your flesh can mislead you, but Christ never will. So if you have some free time read chapter 3 of phillipians. It's good.

I weighed in today with a gain. I asked myself what the real culprits were for the weight gain as was presented in my weight management class today. Here was the real true underlying culprit.....

My husband and I celebrated my run during a little getaway this weekend to Tunica County for dinner and a hotel stay. My mother and father were celebrating my mother's birthday so we joined them for a dinner buffet. Of course, I ate more than I should. My mother was so positive. She has not seen me since July, so she was congratulating me on my weight loss success. My father was not so positive. Somehow we got on the subject of how much I weight now and when this number was revealed my dad shook his head in pure disgust. I felt so terrible. After all the hard work I have put into this, my  father can not be happy for me. This has always been the case. He wasn't excited for me when I went off to college, when I worked hard and bought my own car, when I went to graduate school or when I got married or any other success that he couldn't take any credit for. The little girl in me still wants my dad to be proud of me for something. Maybe he is proud of me...I just wish he would show it instead of focusing on the negative.  When I shared with them the foot injury that I suffered last week. He was so ready to tell me how he has never had a foot injury. He told me how I need to lose more weight before I consider doing anymore jogging. This hurt me so. NO COMMENTS ON MY SUCCESS!!! BUT A HECK OF ALOT TO SAY ABOUT MY FAILURES. So the next day, I let my emotions get away from me. I totally ate off schedule for two days. I didn't initially realize that I was upset by my dad's comments or lack thereof. Nor did I choose to ignore my dad's negative comments and focus on the positive comments from my mother.

Good News, I put a finger on an emotion that I have never been able to spot. I WANT MY DAD'S APPROVAL. For years, I have been replacing food for his approval. Maybe not all of my bad habits and overeating is related to this, but I believe the majority of it stems from this need to please my dad and have him like me and tell me, "I am proud of you". I do realize that I am a part of him and if he doesn't like me....he doesn't like a part of himself and there is nothing that I can do about that. That is his problem. So what are my goals for this situation that is bound to happen again: 1. Focus on the positive (even in the  negative statements, find a way to take positive from it) 2. Remember what God has done for me and in me to make me a better person 3. Continue to walk in love and remember I Corinthians 13:5  (Love) It is not rude, it is not sef-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. It felt good to release that. Thanks for listening.

Anyway, so the new excitement that I spoke of Sunday continues. My new week officially starts tomorrow. I am continuing to replace processed low nutrient snacks with fruits and vegetables and other snacks that are nutrient rich. Next weigh in, I will lose not only what I gained, but more. YEA, can't wait to be the best me I can be this week.

Here is a scripture that relates to my Father in Heaven's feelings about me. Maybe this will help you like it has and will continue to help me: Psalms 139:13-17

New Found Fire

I am so excited about starting this week. I feel as if this is the first week of my journey. You know how enthusiastic a person is when they first start a weight management program. Well, for some reason I have that same fire today. I have a new workout plan for this week. I have to make a few changes since my heel and ankle hurts so bad. I realize that life is full of setbacks. What separates successful people from the rest of society is that they don't let setbacks ruin their plans. I will start interval training this week to burn as many or more calories than the jogging program. I have also created a whole weeks menu without processed junk. Wish me luck this week.

Celebration and Physical Challenges

With the race last week and the inclusion of 5 days of running, I overused my muscles this week. I always complete a warm-up and cool-down and light stretching, but I somehow hurt my achilles tendon. I looked on the internet to see how this happended and what I can do about it. I increased my workout too soon after my race. The only solution is rest. So, no more intense jogging for a while. That's okay, I still have other things that I can do to burn calories. I should have not only added the extra days, I should not have worked out on Monday following the race. I should have rested...no worries...injuries happen to athletes. Did you read that??? I called myself and athlete. One thing about athletes, they don't let injuries keep them down.

My husband and I just finished my reward for completion of the race. We spent the a day and night together without my son. That has not happened in almost two years. We had a great time and yes, I ate as if I were on vacation. I still held on to my core values, but I did treated myself. We had soooo much fun.

I pre-ordered a new weight loss book. I am excited to read about someone elses success. It is so motivating. Well, I will talk to you later world. Thanks for checking out my blog.

New Goals

I weighed in today with a 2.6 pound loss. That put me at a total loss of 35 lbs even. Wow, if someone would have told me four months ago that I would lose 35 pounds, I would not have believed you.

What's your truth. Find out what lies you have told yourself and find the truth that you have been hiding from yourself. It is great to acknowledge the truth. The WHOLE truth. When you know the truth...you are set free. My new truth...no excuses, exercise is non negotiable and I have to make healthy choices one at a time.

Tomorrow starts my fifth month of healthy living. I have decided to take it up a notch. I have met most of the initial goals that I have set for myself. So it is time to write new goals. The new goals will include jogging more to increase duration and speed, writing daily, praying more and finding a way to reach out to others who have struggled with weight.

5k Women Walk/Run Memphis 2009 Completed!!!!

Hello All,

I feel great. This morning I completed my first 5k since the start of my healthy journey. I ran the whole time. I did not stop. My husband and son were there to support me. It felt so good to see the finish line. I will definitely do this again next year. There is no feeling like reaching your goals and having people that love you support your efforts.

Scripture for the week

Hebrews 12:1 Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us.

Hey guys, what's your weight? Is it being overweight, worry, stress, unforgiveness...lay it aside so that the "weight" won't hinder your walk with God.

Reaching Out!!!

I have this strong, strong desire to help others who have struggled with weight and body image problems.  I have always said that once I master the keys to keeping my weight under control that I would do something for others. I listen to people with a new set of ears and boy are there lots of excuses and a huge lack of interest in putting health first. We just need a little education. There is so much deception out there.....don't get me wrong, I have been a victum of the lies, myths, and twisted truths related to health too.

Well, on Tuesday I weighted in with a 32 pound loss. Yeah, me!

Sugar, Sugar, Junk, Junk!!!

It is still very difficult for me to admit to myself that I am a sugar addict and that I can't have sweets. Sweets set me off!!! Junk food just takes me to another place. It is so...frustrating. My husband had some family come into town for a funeral. You all know how difficult this was for me. People bring so much food to the homes of the family after death occurs. So many homemade cakes and pies. I had to literally leave the house and go shopping. Whatever it takes to stay on track.....right! Right, but at some point I had to come back to the house. I sat in the living room. I watched DVDs with my son. I went outside...but that sock-it-to-me cake was calling me. I gave in. I stayed within my 1500 calories all week until yesterday. I ate a slice of sock-it-to-me cake. Now most people that don't have the addiction factor would have eaten the cake and been satisfied. Not me..following the cake came chips, then donut, then....yes fried fish and chicken. I ate all of my calorie reserve in one night. Tears......

Smiles......Thank God that today is a new day. God's mercy is new every morning. I will have another opportunity to make good choices at family gatherings as I have done in the past.

Hair and Working Out

I am a professional woman. I have to look my best for my clients and those around me. I am my own product. If the packaging doesn't look good we don't by the product right.....right. Well, I have had this challenge before and I have even stopped working out in the past because of it....yes,,,,ladies..I am talking about my hair. After a 30 plus pound loss, I definitely don't want to stop working out because my of my hair. Okay, this is my newest challenge. With the start of my workout program, everything was slow. I would only sweat a little. This allowed me the opportunity to go home and have complete control of this hair. Now that I am running 2 1/2 to 3 miles my hair looks as if I poured a bucket of water on top of my head. I sweat my hair to the soaked level when I jog. Wrapping or rolling it doesn't help and besides, I have a problem wearing bed attire to the gym. Head caps and rollers are to prepare for going out not to go out in but that's another day, another blog. Anyway, I spoke to my hair stylist about it and she let me know that this is a challenge for a lot of her customers and that we will have to use trail and error techniques to keep my hair healthy and have it look presentable. I was very happy that my stylist is willing to work with me, but I was also disappointed that she didn't have the perfect solution, the perfect formula, the perfect mix of chemicals and treatments. She also gave me a few options: 1. cutting it shorter 2. "up" styles 3. straw sets and 4. a wig. What to do?????What to do??????

5k Training Completed!!!

On Friday, I completed the last jog of my 9 week Couch-to-5k training. It can be found on the cool running website. It is a great program that is easy to follow. I have attempted to complete this program two times (once last year and once about three years ago). Then, I would say to myself "I will try to do this program" or "I hope I can do this program". Those times, I hadn't made up in my mind that I would complete it no matter what. See what a difference determination makes. I was determined to complete that program...nothing stopped me. I have to continue to have that same attitude about eating right as well.

This is a picture of me after completing the program. I felt so good. Next week, I will complete my first 5k with the Women's Run program. I was unable to practice with them due to my work schedule, so I did it on my own. Sometimes you have to do that. Go to: http://www.coolrunning.com/ to find the program I was able to complete. If I can do it you can too.

Realization!

 Tonight as my husband was unlocking the door to our house, it hit me like it never has before. I realized that I will be eating right, jogging, strength training and overcoming my compulsive eating urges for the rest of my life. Not just until I reach my goal weight, but forever. WOW....I am in this for the long run.

New Challenges

This second phase of my journey has posed different challenges. I have been getting more organized as far as planning my meals, but I have stopped doing thing such as adding new receipes that have low calories. I believe that this is why a little bit of boredom is setting in. Any suggestions for spicing up my efforts? Well, I have suggested cutting out processed snacks....yes, snacks...even the 100 calorie snacks that I love to eat. My goal is to get into my healthy body. I feel that this will taste much better than the snacks I love.

Positivity

Hey guys,

I have been reading some really motivational books that have helped me to stay on track (and to get back on track when I fall off). They are called: Fit for God by La Vita M. Weaver and Never Say Diet by Chantel Hobbs. These are not just your average weight loss guides, they are Christian books with scriptures to assist with your mission. It wasn't until the last couple of years did I realize that God wanted me to be healthy. I was always under the impression that it wasn't something that God really had time to help me with. I thought it was my concern or my dilemma. BUT He cares about whatever I care about and I care about liking myself inside and out. So if you get a chance read these books they are very motivating.

Tomorrow starts my new week and I am going to incorporate a scripture to meditate on for the week. I haven't been saying my positive statement every morning, but that is a goal for this weeks. Maybe you will want to do this as well. I know God placed it on my heart to watch my words because of a statement I made to my husband last week which was: "I just completed 12 weeks of healthy eating and have lost 29 pounds. I know the next 12 weeks won't be as easy. I probably won't lose a lot of weight." Immediately after saying this, I felt a flutter in my stomach. I knew I had said something against what I had promised God that I would do.....so I started to think more positive. I later told my husband, "I will continue to lose weight at a rate that is appropriate for me. Although these next 12 weeks will be different from the first, I will still make great progress toward my goals of a healthy life."

So here is my scripture: Proverbs 18:20-21 A man's stomach shall be satisfied from the fruit of his mouth; from the produce of his lips he shall be filled. Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

Today I weighed in with a 1.8 pound loss. I have lost a total of 31.4 pounds. I am nearing the half way mark to my goal weight. What an exciting journey!!!

Watch Me Lose

I just wanted to give you all an updated picture of me after todays church service. This is a dress that was not taken from the "Plus size" section of the store.

Falling of the wagon....can someone find my motivation.

I lost one pound this week. That put me at 29 pounds lost. I am very proud of myself, but I have to be honest and say that I have lost a little steam. I am still motivated to be healthy....it's just that the fire has decreased a bit. I am going to get back to the basics. I am going to go back to the beginning and gather all of the enthusiasm that kept me motivated at the beginning of the last twelve weeks. Today, I attended a baby shower. I ate less calories early to leave room for the calories that I would eat at the shower. Well, I over ate. I ate like a pig. I was so hungry. What can I do in a situation like that next time.....eat a meal before I go instead of trying not to eat anything. I have of course forgiven myself for today. I am aware that this may negatively affect the scale this week. One positive is, I was able to share my tips for weight loss with some friends. That was very motivating.

Sticking to it!!!

I have been on my healthy journey for 12 weeks. I have learned to forgive myself for mistakes. I have developed an exercise routine that is fun and challenging. I have organized my eating, and have utilized some strategies to reduce "overeating" moments. Isn't that great. I haven't been consistent in a long time. My goal for the next twelve weeks is to work on speaking more positive affirmations. I will state my positive statement every morning for 12 weeks. This is the statement that I have come up with: "Today, I will be the best I can be in all that I do physically, mentally and spiritually. The choices that I make today will positively effect my goals to reach and maintain my healthy weight, be successful in my business and to be the best I can be for my family. Today, I thank God for being with me and giving me all the tools I need to be consistent, faithful and positive." This is the statement that I will use for now. I may revise it as my needs change. What do you think? Any suggestions for revisions?

25lbs Plus

Hello,

I did it!!! I have lost more weight at one time than I have ever lost during my many attempts to lose weight. I also jogged today for 15 minutes straight without taking a walking break. I have met and exceeded all of my goals for that I had established for the first 12 weeks. Tomorrow starts the first day of my 12th week of my healthy life journey. I have never felt as good as I feel now. I have more energy for work, my husband and my son. At the end of the this twelve weeks, I will establish new goals.

Cross Roads

I have decided to start the second phase of my business. I have decided that this addition to my plan will not have a negative effect on my healthy life efforts. I am attempting to continue to put my health first even when the stress levels are high. I did well tonight. I was not planning on going to a buffet, but my husband really wanted to eat at the local Chinese buffet. I only had one plate and a small serving of rice, chicken and green beans. I also had a small piece of a cake square. This was great for me. I would have previously eaten 3 plates filled to the top and 3-4 cake squares. Thank God for the changes I have made in my life.

A size smaller

Yesterday was a great day!!! I am officially 1 size smaller than I was when I started this journey. It felt so good to truly fit into a size smaller. My mother was surprised to know that I was actually smaller than her. It feels so different. Before, on the many, many times that I have attempted to lose weight, I never felt like the changes that I made would be permanent and life long. I always saw it as something temporary. Something that I was doing to get to a certain size. But now, I want to be healthy. I want to make healthy choices for myself and for my family. I want my extended family to notice our changes and incorporate those changes into their life as well. Its a new found freedom.

Before my mom and I went shopping, I made my weekly visit to my hairstylist. The regular customers have noticed my weight loss. They all congratulated me on my success. As they congratulated me, they immediately began to make excuses for themselves as to why they were not following in my footsteps and making changes. I saw my "old self" in them. I begin to hear my own excuses. It feels so good to know that excuses are barriers to success that have to be brokendown and removed. It feels so good to be free.

August 5th

Here is a picture of me at 22.8lbs lost after a session at the local gym. I feel better than I have felt in years. Great day today. I found myself a little stressed today over my job, but I realized that their are some changes that I can make to have less stressful situations. I just have to work on my consistency. Consistency is something that I am developing daily. I am doing a great job.

22 POUNDS GONE!!!

Yes, Yes, Yes!!! Today was a great day. I weighed in with a 22 pound loss. I am so excited. I have put in a lot of work. My husband is so supportive as well as my mother. The energy the I now have for my son is remarkable. I am not to worn out to roll in the floor and play "cars". It is so wonderful to take control of you life.

What happened???

Today, I was looking through old photo albums and I noticed how I have stopped doing a lot of things for myself that I used to do. I have not purchased myself a new outfit in over a year. As I looked in the old photo books, I noticed how much I used to "treat" myself. I would always buy myself make-up and perfume and earrings ....etc. I have got to do more for myself. This week, I will treat myself for the weight that I have lost.

This week, I did a great job with keeping up with my exercise plan. I have increased my ability to jog for a longer distance. What I have also noticed is my increased desire for food. I don't know if it is mental or actually physical. I will ask my counselor tomorrow to see if she can help me identify the increase in cravings....

Today was also my first day back to work after my vacation. It was refreshing to see the kids today. I have so many ideas for them. I'll write tomorrow and let you know the results of my weigh-in.

Good Choices

The last couple of nights of my vacation week have been great. I have made great choices during my meals out with my friend. I have chosen salads, low fat dressings, resisted temptations to nibble on appetizers. I still have the challenge of giving up desserts. That is my next mountain. I can't worry about that now. I just want to make sure that the things I have mastered stay mastered.

New Nephew

Hello all,

My new nephew Jacob Noah Cole was born. He weighs 8lbs 10oz. I am so excited. Babies are wonderful. Today, I had a great day today. I followed the plan and had a great work-out session this morning. After this blog, I am going to sign-up for another 5k race in early September. I am on week three of my training. Only five more weeks to go before I will be able to run 3.1 miles on a regular basis.

Forgiveness

Hello World,

I just attended my weight loss group meeting today. My husband talked me into going. It took all of my energy to go and face the music after my vacation. Even though I did all of that big talk in my last blog. I was scared to go back, scared to get back on the horse. I got on the scale and I had gained 4.2 pounds. Can you believe that I gained that much in 3 days!!!!

Going to the meeting helped me to truly forgive myself. I was so disappointed in my loss of control this weekend that I was about to give up. But one of the members stated that "Exercise will not cover the sins of overeating". The Leader also made the most important statement that actually helped me to make a new start for this week. She stated, "The road to success is always 'under construction'." I am so thankful for those group sessions. They help me to see myself through others. It lets me know that I am not in this alone.

Home Again

Hello world,

I am back at home. My safe place to get back on track. Tonight, I am going to write my plan for the week and my positive quotes. I will post pictures of me from our vacation. Tomorrow, I will attend my weight loss meeting. I'm ready to face the music. There were things that I did do right on this vacation. I continued to exercise, I jogged a mile and I ate well for breakfast every morning.

Day 3 of Vacation

Well, Well, Well, I have officially lost the battle for my first vacation. I have made the big mistake of losing control away from home. It is very difficult to forgive myself. I like to do things the right way most of the time. I am very hard on myself. So this is even a bigger challenge than resisting the desire to overeat. I have to do it though. I have learned that not forgiving myself only puts me back at my starting weight. This is something new that I can do to get closer to my goal....forgive Mia with my whole heart.

Anniversary Trip

We are having so much fun in St. Louis. It is a struggle to stay on my plan. I really want to indulge in the food that St. Louis has to offer, but it is more important at this point for me to continue to develop self control. I still feel that I am too new to venture off track too far. I did have a fried fish sandwich and carrot cake last night for our celebration of 5 years of marriage. We have visited the arch today and are going to Forest Park and the zoo tomorrow. The good thing about this trip is that we are doing lots of walking and enjoying the view of the city. I was walking on the riverfront and I thought to myself. "I can't wait until my weight is not on my mind. Every thought is about my weight and how I look." I don't remember a time in the last 17 years that my weight has not been on my mind.
Lil Fred is having a great time. He loves the trains over the river and the horses for the carriage rides. Fred is have a great time as well. We have had and continue to have a great life together. These five years have been magical.

Motivating Reading Material

Today, I have been searching for articles and books to keep me motivated. I am going to include a plan for spending time renewing my mind to healthy living. I have been feeling a little "rushed" to get to my goal. I do understand that if I don't take my time and truly learn how to make these healthy choices a part of my life, I am headed for the "roller coaster ride". I have been thinking about scriptures and quotes that promote endurance and patience. This weekend my husband, son and I are going to St. Louis, MO for our 5th anniversary celebration and family vacation. I plan to stay on my healthy eating and exercise plan.

Wednesday July 22, 2009

Last week, I started a training program that will teach me to run 3.1 miles in 9 weeks. I am so excited about this program. I have attempted to complete the program many times, but this time I am not going to rush myself. I am developing patience and my workouts are included in this. As I learn to eat well and consistently make healthy choices, I am going to fullfil my dreams of becoming athletic. I think that I am athlete at heart. I have always wanted to be athletic, but I didn't know exactly how to pull the athlete out of me. Well, I have found the motivation I need to become a runner. My challenge is to remain patient enough to give myself time to develop into one.

Tuesday 7/21/2009

My permanent journey to health began on 6/3/2009. I just completed my 7th week of success on my road to fitness. I have consistently lost weigh since I decided to permanently change my eating habits and move more. I started at a weight of 235.8. After the first week of healthy eating, I lost a total of 8 pounds. The second week, 3 lbs, third week, 1.4 lbs, fourth week 1.2 lbs, week five 2.2, week six 2.2, and week seven 1.6. This is a total of 19.6 lbs lost as of 7/21/2009. My family and close friends are very supportive of my efforts. As a result, my husband has shed a few pounds himself.