T-Ball Fun and Christian Maturity

Thursday was such an exciting day for me! I rushed back from Jackson, MS to attend Bug's first T-ball practice. He did such a great job. He listened very well, watched the coaches and followed directions. He was able to hit the ball and run to the bases. Fred (Daddy Fred) needs to be on the coaching staff. He was all in the way. Well, they appreciated his assistance, but he was helping the children get to the bases and bat at the T. It was the cutest thing ever.
Nick and I walked the walking trail at the park. He enjoyed the scenery and I enjoyed the stress relief of a nice walk with my baby boy. Fun! Fun!

I have been going through a great transition, both mentally, emotionally and physically. A lot of my initial goals have changed. I have matured. things that were so important to me are not as important. Things that I never cared about are now extremely important to me. I guess I am maturing and beginning to see what is really important in life. As I am getting deeper into my thirties and accepting my role as a mother, things are so different and I like it. The bible has a different meaning. My role as a christian is different. I always saw things as "for me", but my christianity is not for me at all. It is for others....ding!ding!ding! This is also a lesson learned from the book of Jonah and my other studies. I have a deeper understanding of what Jesus did for us and the true meaning of what He means. The words we speak and the attitudes that we have make or break our daily successes and failures in life. I understand that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. There is NOTHING that just happens, NOTHING.  The life I have today is a direct result of the choices I have made, the people I have decided to listen to and the words that I have spoken. We have a lot more authority over the coarse of our lives than we think. God gave us free will. We have the power to chose life or chose death. HE suggested that we chose life so that we may live (Deutoronomy 30:19). Our words Proverbs 18:21 determine our outcome as well.

Today, I chose the Word, forever.

This is my first step to the rest of my life. I am not going through this ever again. I can say that wholeheartedly. I haven't been as confident about this EVER! So, I am learning about the power of words, Words that we speak to others and those we say to ourselves and about ourselves. The Word, the need to seek Him (God) first. We have to seek the Kingdom of God, which is to say, we have to seek God's way of thinking and operating. This is only done through His word. Consistent, non negotiable time with Him on a daily basis. Not if I have time to spend reading and studying the Word, but a MUST! There is nothing more important. Today! I make a decision to choose life and that life is The Word~

There is no other way to get rid of an addiction (food or other addiction), but to renew your mind truly to the Word of God. You have got to change your thinking. I mean really do it. I mean really, no... I mean really change your mind. It's not about just knowing scriptures, but praying them and meditation on them until they start speaking to you. Then making CHANGES with the power that comes from the Holy Spirit as you  mix action with the Word of God. The Word~ Until it bubbles up inside of you and spill out and into your heart (spirit man). I am a spirit. God designed my spirit (human spirit) to  hunger and thirst after Him. He made us to fellowship with Him. That is what we were designed to do. If we do not do this, we will fill ourselves with junk-whether junk food, food, t.v., drugs, alcohol, needing praise from others, people pleasers, cigarettes, working too much, sex, backbiting and slander, starting strife, partying, fornication, adultery, lack of discipline, shopping, obsessive behaviors, hoarding. Whatever, Your, thing is. It is your human attempt to fill the space in your spirit that is designed to be filled with Love or God.

I want God/Love to fill my space so that I will be able to take on anything. We have so many sayings and "fake" religious beliefs. Stuff that I see and thought I knew is not even in the bible or was misquoted or taken out of context completely. We put so much and require so much of the responsibility of knowing God on the pastor or preacher. God has given us just as much grace and mercy and authority as our pastors. We don't need him (pastor) to go to God for us. We have to go to God ourselves. When we don't understand why something we are believing for doesn't work, we start to reason with our stupid human"religion". We say things, like I guess it wasn't in God's will. His will is spelled out for us. We have to keep his commandments. WE CAN DO IT. Jesus was our example, but one thing about Him. He spent time with the father on a daily basis.

 For all these years, I have made something so easy; so difficult. God is easy. He loves me. I chose to stay in His word today and forever.

THE WORD WORKS! IT WORKS!

I was making my confessions and thinking on good things and meditating on the scripture and readings, the book of Jonah from this summer, the scriptures from the last two and a half years just everything God has been dealing with me on for the last seven years of my life. AND TODAY...It all came together.  Why today? My ground is good. In Mark 4, the word has to be sown on good ground and my ground is good. Every other time, nothing took root. I would eat the seed or let something or someone take the seed or it would get planted, but not deep enough. I have been guilty of eating my seeds. I learned the lesson a while back, "Don't eat the seed!" but I have still been holding the seeds. Afraid to plant them, afraid to let them go and afraid to trust God with the seeds. But it hit me today...again like a ton of bricks.  My ground can always get better, but today  it is good enough for the seeds to be planted deep. I saw so much today.