Finally A Member

Today, Fred and I joined Brown Missionary Baptist Church in Southaven, MS. We have been visiting on and off for about 5 years. I must admit that I was the reason for the delay. I just wasn't sure 5 years ago. Fred always loved the church. We tried membership at another organization, but it wasn't for us. After over a year of my visiting and enjoying the services (2008-2010), we decided a couple of Sundays ago that we would officially join. Because Fred works on Sundays it has been difficult to coordinate a time in which he could attend one of the three services. He had to leave the house at 4:00am this morning to make it to the 11:30 service on time. So that is what we are going to do: Fred will attend two services per month at 10am or 11:30am which ever one he can. Bug and I will continue to attend the 8am service when Fred can't go and go to the later services when Fred can attend. That is our plan. I guess I need to ask God to show me which  ministry is right for me. I need one that I can really commit to being a part of. Now that I have started working a little more, it will be challenging trying to do it all, but God knows my heart and I will do what He leads me to do.

Health wise, I have been feeling pretty good. I still have a strong pull to start my compulsive eating group. I really need to do this. Can I do this while I am pregnant? Will people listen to me? I feel that this is something that I should do. To be honest, I know that I should do it. I am so afraid of what others will think. Will anyone be interested? If they are, will they continue to come. Will the "haters" mess with me and try to stop what I am trying to achieve? Will the attendees take me seriously  when I am still over my ideal weight? So many questions and doubts and insecurities. I have never really lead a group like this and definitely not a group that I plan on using scriptures and prayer along with nutritional information. I have to get the courage to step out there. I'll keep praying on it. You pray with me world. I need it.

Off to get ready for a great week this week. I am going on my first prenatal visit. I am so excited.