I have been running. I am only at about 1/2 a mile, but I am running. I am surprisingly in good shape to have so much "baby'" weight. Yes, I can still blame my weight gain on the baby. I'd better hurry up and get this weight off before too long 'cause once Nicholas starts getting close to a year old; "baby" weight as an excuse isn't going to fly. I have been reading the book of Hebrews. It is about doing what you know you should do as a believer. It is also about knowing what God has done for us through Jesus. What a great message!
Anyway, I have been having lots of emotions since my last post. It like a roller coaster ride. One minute I am okay and I know that Fred will be okay and that he will catch up to the level of his peers. Then, I go into this sad mode in which I realize how he can't tell me what he did at school and how he seems so "weird", and how other kids laugh at him. He has very immature language skills. I don't want to diagnosis him before his comprehensive evaluation, but I feel it may be a little more than just a "language" impairment. At this point, his language, social, emotional and physical skills should not be questionable. We are past the "give him more time" phase that my denial has placed me in. OH HOW SWEET DENIAL IS! It is so safe and comfy. I don't have to face anything when I am in denial. I love my child (children) so much that all I see or want to see is perfection. And language impaired or ????; perfect is what Lil Fred is.
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