STILL RECEIVING HELP, AGAIN

I am up this morning. I have decided to write instead of doing any of my other morning activities. I have a lot on my mind so...just let me vent. Thanks world.

I learned yesterday not to take on too much, how to make things more simple. I heard a teaching on the story of Moses and how he had to learn to delegate once he began working for his father-in-law. He tried to do everything himself. He would do things just because people asked him to, not considering what he had to do himself or what would be more important than the thing you agreed to do for someone else. SELAH! Isn't the bible amazing! The word of God is so practical. It actually has an example of EVERYTHING and a solution. It is definitely the key to life. ONE thing I have to remember to do is GO TO THE BIBLE FIRST AND NOT AFTER THE ERRORS HAVE BEEN MADE. I would save myself a lot of time. For me, I seem to hear a whole lot better after I have bumped my "hard head". To get me to listen to anyone once I have set my mind on something is a heck of a challenge. This characteristic has been a good thing at times and a horrible thing at other times.

I am STILL working on some things: 1.) saying, No,  2.) letting people help me and 3.) Having the courage to not give up.  I have times when I get really discouraged when it comes to Lil Fred and his communication. Every time, I see a younger kid that is further along in his communication than Bug, I just get so upset. All these emotions: anger, sadness, confusion, denial and even betrayal. I realize this situation has turned my life up side down: some for the good, but in some ways has made living a bit difficult. I cast the care, but I keep picking it back up. I keep holding on to it wanting to fix it myself. What can I do? I'll try this...or I'll try that. Maybe I can buy this or that. Then, I see God standing there waiting to take the worry back from me, waiting to take the burden, waiting to sort it all out for me. I then with hesitation, I give it back to Him, 'cause I will again realize that I can't fix it. Only He can. So here...my Lord...take it back. Help me to trust you to take care of Lil Fred.

Side step:  I had a meeting with a computer programmer, IT (whatever that means, I think Internet technician...who knows. I need to look that up) and website designer yesterday. The meeting was a bit strange, because about seven or eight years ago, I had a different association with this man. He came to assist me with some changes that are about to take place as far as business is concerned. As he explained things, it was a bit difficult at first. I just assumed I needed a little bit of this and a few more of that. But once I told him what I want and he explained everything...and I was able to turn it around into terms that I could relate to (I related everything to housing, real estate, and interior designing). I now realize that I was living in the ghetto, Section 8 as it relates to the choices that I have made related to technology. It was a GREAT meeting. Well worth the time.

I had better get ready to start the day....I'll write a little later.  Thanks for listening.