Emotions, Food, Relationship

To end the struggle with food, I have realized that emotions have to be taken out of the relationship with food. I know that this will not happen over night and it may even take me years to change my relationship with food. I know that change is a process and so is learning to forgive myself for slip ups. Life has its ups and downs. Will I go up and down with my weight just because my emotions change??? If I keep this up, I will gain and lose weight over and over and over again. Today it stops.

So the thing now is to detach emotions from eating....whether happy or sad, up or down, bored or excited, lonely or with others. Food has to be associated with fueling my body. I will have to learn new ways of behavior as it relates to food. It seems like the closer I get to the marathon, the more nervous I become. When this happens, I have found myself running to food. When I think about all of the work I have to do, I run to food. So not only do I have to learn to appreciate myself and love my body. I also have to control my response to emotions. Emotions will always be present, but I don't have to let them determine my eating pattern. I must work harder to be consistent, focus and I also have to repeat the same new patterns to develop new and lasting habit. I can do it. I will do it. I am a Spirit, so I must continue to strengthen my inner spiritual man so that I can overcome my mind, will and emotions. So as I continue to read and study the Word of God, I will get stronger. I have gotten stronger and will continue to grow more and more.

I went to my weight management meeting today and was up 2 pounds. I have been playing with this same weight range since November. This past weekend, we went to Incredible Pizza and I just don't do very well at buffets. I really don't do them, but because my in-laws were in town. I went and I ate.

 I have come to far to turn back. The substitute leader told me to keep on keeping on and that is what I will do.  I love how she gives us copies of articles and she also suggests books that will keep us motivatied. That is right up my alley. I love to read. Especially "self-help" information.

Well....tomorrow is a new day. A fresh start for Mia.