I had a great weekend! The weather was great and I felt great. My husband, bug and I got a chance to spend time outside in the yard. The only thing that I didn't get to do of course is run...booooooo.
I was trying to attend a meeting to join this running group that I mentioned in some earlier posts. Since I didn't do the 20 miler Saturday, I was planning on attending the SIM meeting so that I could join them for Saturday morning runs and area races after Nashville. They were supposed to meet all of the new members at Panera bread (trinity commons). I went there and no running group. I went to every area panera bread..no running group meeting. So I contacted the president of the group by email and she was aware of my "not attending the meeting due to my 20 miler on the same day" so she didn't send me the email about the change in venue. She also knew about my knee injury... Jocelyn (a fellow TNT alumnus) is also a member of SIM and told the president about my knee. That brings me great relief that she already knew my situation. So I will attend the next meeting which will be held this coming Saturday. Yeah!
I also went to my old job. I visited some of my patients that I love so dearly. A lot of them still remembered me. I didn't see any of the therapist that I worked with...it was a Saturday, but I saw some of the nurses and CNAs that were there when I was there. They were really stunned at my weight loss. It amazes me at times because although I know that I have lost a lot of weight...I still see "big Mia" sometimes.. I know this is a self esteem issue and I am working on this with God's help, but I guess I have really changed. The change that I see is more on the inside. I have difficulty seeing the outside change. I am sure with time, I will notice the outside more than I do now. I visited my old hair salon too..I walked in and it took them a long time to acknowledge who I was. I REALLY MUST LOOK DIFFERENT!
I went to Germantown yesterday to get a little me time. I went to TJ Maxx to attempt to find a love for clothes shopping...especially now that I am not plus sized and clothes are easier to find. I found a few dresses and tried them on. I liked how I looked, but I continued to "knit pick" every flaw that I found in the dressing room mirror. The stretch marks, discolorations, hanging skin from pregnancy and weight loss..that it just wasn't fun any more. So I put the dresses back and left...
When I returned home Saturday, Fred looked at me with the most loving smile that I have seen from him in a while. Lil' Fred said, "Hey Mama". This is what life is about. They see a beauty about me that I will on day see for myself. They both amaze me.
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