Yesterday's run was a lot of fun. Running in a group is so motivating. We talked and laughed the whole four miles. After the run, we had a clinic (an educational workshop about running topics) on running gear and race preparation gagets. I was a little overwhelmed. I really was unable to determine what I really need and what I don't. It is so much to take in. I must say that I didn't realize that running was such a science. There is a lot to the body when it is preparing for long distance runs. The running outfit that Fred and I purchased at the Nike Clearance Store was perfect. It was exactly what the owner of the running store was showing us. I got mine at a fraction of the cost. Running material is expensive, but after listening to the "science" behind the material and design of the running clothing. I understand why it costs what it does.
I am still in the process of transitioning to natural hair. I have not relaxed since September. I am excited because I can see a small amount of new growth. This week I am on vacation.( Fred and I are not leaving the city, but we both have taken the week off to get some much needed rest.) I am going to get a sew-in. I want a sew in that looks natural. My hair stylist and I are going to the beauty supply store to find some styles that will work for me. Wednesday of this week is the big day. That's when my new look will emerge.
Yesterday, we went to a classmate of my son's birthday party. I ate pizza and cake. Then we went to a Grizzlies basketball game and I ate at the game as well. I don't overeat often, but when I taste just a little bit of forbidden food it sets me off. It's like I lose all control. I don't care how much hard work I put into myself, when I allow myself to eat junk, I can't manage to get a grip.
Today, I attended the church that I have been attending. The pastor preached on getting physically fit as well as spiritually fit. It was just what I needed to hear. He supported his message with the same scriptures that I have been reading and meditating. Fred got a chance to go with me, and he stated that the message hit home with him as well. We all need to do a better job of being the best we can be. I have gotten better, but I still have major areas of weakness (procrastination, laziness, inconsistency, low self-esteem and unforgiveness) I have gotten better in all of these areas, but my weakness in these areas have caused me to seek fulfillment. I have replaced the need for God and His love with the desire for food. I haven't taken the time to make a schedule for spending time with God. Don't get me wrong, I have made great progress. I have lost a lot of weight and I feel better about myself, I am able to do more now that I could this time last year because of my increased energy level. All this being said, I know that if I don't get this overeating together, I won't enjoy this freedom from food for long. I have got to get these days of mindless eatting and binge moments behind me. My submission to God will get me there. My meditation on scriptures, the putting thoughts of God and his goodness above the thought of 'what am i gonna eat next' will help me get to my goal weight and maintain it.
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