Weigh In, Taking a break

I am still losing weight. Even though, I haven't been 100% on my eating plan. Tuesdays weigh in resulted in a 44 pound loss. I am so glad that I am losing still even though I feel like I am not doing as well as I have in the past. I spoke to the leader about my feelings. I let her know that I am a little tired of doing what I am doing. Even though I am losing weight and people are complimenting me. I still have come to a point where the "honeymoon" of it all and the excitement of it all is fading. I am truly starting to see that this is something that I will have to do whether I feel like it or not. It is hard not to be driving by your feelings, but to be successful I am going to have to put my feelings aside and do what I know that I am supposed to do. Well anyway, my leader suggested that I take a break from dieting.....she emphasized not going overboard but just to take a break. Well that is exactly what I did!!! Wednesday, Thursday and Friday of this week I took a break. Of course I didn't eat as much as I would have when I first started but I ate some things that I haven't eaten in six months. I continued to exercise. I have to do that. Oh how I wish I was as excited about eating right as I am about exercise. Things would be so easy then. Well, I feel like crap. I feel like a big trash can filled with junk. So much for taking a break. ITS NOT WORTH IT!!! I thought I was missing out on something. NO! NO! I haven't felt this sick or full in months. I won't do it again. Falling of the horse one day is one thing, But falling off for three days has not been fun. I like eating healthy. I will continue to do it from now on no matter how I feel.

I am on my way to our third TNT training session. We are going to run 3 miles this morning. Once I return, I am going to purge some of the old clothes in my closet, do my workout schedule and my eating plan for next week (including Thanksgiving Day) My goal is to have control on this day too. I don't want to gain weight. I will reach a weight of 180 pounds by December 31st. Nothing will stop me from reaching that. Of course I will allow myself to have some of the food during the holidays, but one plate, one serving is my motto.