Roots!

My roots are showing. I haven't been rooted in my healthy journey. I have allowed the cares of this world, to remove my planted seeds. What am I talking about? Well, I was listening to a teaching today (which I have now included in my things to do weekly). This teacher spoke on Mark 4. Jesus talked about the sewer and the seeds. A farmer planted some seed. As he scattered it across the field some of the seeds fell on a footpath and the birds ate it, some of the seeds fell on shallow soil with underlying rock. The seed sprouted quickly because the soil was shallow. but the plant soon wilted under the hot sun, and since it didn't have deep roots it died. Other seed fell among thorns that grew up and choked out the tender plants so they produced no grain. Still other seeds fell on fertile soil, and they sprouted, grew and produced a crop that was thirty, sixty and even a hundred times as much as had been planted. Jesus explained to the disciples that the seed represented God's word and some of the listeners did not take the word and get it rooted in their hearts so they would become discouraged as soon as the cares of this life come. I have been like this. Everytime a day does not go as perfectly planned, I abandon God's will for me to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I have even wanted to give up because I felt as if I had lost what I had. My motivation and enthusiasm is gone. That's how I feel, but feelings come and go but the Word of God is permanent and alive. I asked God to forgive me for losing faith in what He is doing in my life. I repent of the spirit of impatients, lack of restraints and using food as my "god".
I have been deceiving myself into thinking that I can do this alone with man's tools of weight management programs and nutritional information. Don't get me wrong, I need these things, but what I also need is the word daily. So, back to the start again. God I hear you, I won't leave you out again. I'm back for the umteenth time. Here I am use me for you will.
I am going to step outside of myself. It is time to go and produce a harvest. I am going to tell anyone who is willing to hear me speak on my deliverance from food obsession, and addictive  behaviors. I have been set free and am growing from glory to glory everyday. I chose to stay focus and rooted in God's word. I will find scriptures and teachings to help me with the cares of this world, not food. I will exercise, clean up, read my bible, dance with my son when stress and frustration appear. I am now divorcing food. You are out of my life and I will have no relationship with you other than to fuel my body. IT'S OVER!