Freedom

Haven't written for a while. I have been busy with the business and attending revival at church. Which has been awesome. Going again tonight. Anyway, this morning I have been thinking...Here it goes....

The Apostle Paul talked about our freedom as Christians. He indicated that we were free to do what we want, but we should not do things that may cause ourselves or others to sin (paraphrasing, misquoting, everything). I have been thinking about freedom. Real freedom from my struggle with Mia (body image, self-esteem etc.) since the start of this journey. Through readings about leadership, influence, diets, and the rules for healthy living, It is starting to become very clear to me. We have to allow ourselves to be free from the struggle with food. No restrictions. That means that I will one day be able to eat what I want. Truly want.

What do we desire most? The things that we think we can't have or the things that we think we can't do. Its not just related to food. You see it in everyday life. People steal, cheat, lie and overeat all because they want something that they feel they can't have or don't deserve. So when you get into "compulsive mode" you let down your guard and get the very thing that you have been restricting. Money. Its not a bad thing. We need it to function in the world, but when we use it for the wrong reasons. For what it is not designed for. It becomes the root of All evil. Food is the very same way. We need food for nurishment. We need food for our bodies to function. So when we eat when we are not hungry, we misuse it. I guess I really truly don't want it because I am not hungry. What is it that I really want? I want to be loved, comfortable, and accepted. Can we do that for ourselves? With true Freedom....we can. That's why God has given me "motives" to focus on. What is my motive for eating this food? What do I really want from this or that? Just stopping and asking myself things and having the belief that I am going to tell myself the truth will prevent a lot of heart ache. I don't have to met the expectations of others. I can do what I want to do in line with God's will. I can be free to be me. No calorie counting, no point counting, no workout legalistic ridged rules....freedom.